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Wednesday, April 2, 2014

The Returnee

     They say life is made up of memories, the good ones and the not so good ones. Your first kiss, the first beating in school, your first crush, your first fight. a series of firsts that shape your experience. You can neither get enough firsts nor can you have enough memories, but every now and then you sit back, delve through those myriad memories and smile at that experience that's treasured close to your heart.

     For me, that experience was a trip I took to Bo in 2003. Two years after the war was declared officially over, in the middle of the national reconstruction and resettlement stage, a few days after I had taken my WASSCE exams, at a moment I was deep in the desert of self-discovery, I took the return leg of a trip I had undertaken in early 1992. Back then, the war had just started and I was hard pressed to recall anything about the trip as a combination of my Mom's back and my spindly legs combined excellently to keep me ahead of the rebels who had just started their movement by attacking my town.

     My interactions with the provinces in the intervening years were all centered around hearing tales of the progress of the war, seeing the geometric increase of new faces around my area and the gigantic fear that would strike my heart whenever my Mum, (whose business required her traversing the rebel infested highways ever so often) showed up at home or was leaving on another journey. They tell me now that I always used to cry when she left, I don't remember that part (yes, that's my story and I'm sticking to it).

     Those intervening years had made me very much a "Fritong boy". With a full creole name and an educational background that had taken me to a lot of "creole" schools, this trip was going to be some experience.
As the government bus gradually chased the sunrise on rickety roads, I was confronted with all I'd heard on the news about the war. Burnt out busses littered the roads, broken checkpoints were not uncommon and half naked children with varied wares would greet us at every small town. Unlike today, the journey lasted close to a whole day.


     Then I was reminded of the hospitality that is common among Sierra Leoneans but more renowned among those in the provinces. Constantly bamboozled by the many family members I had never known I had. Had anyone told me I was a long lost prince, I would not have disputed that. Such is the exceptional treatment that was meted out to me on that trip. Needless to say I did not want to leave, but I had to and I did. Not before sampling all the delights a vibrant and laid back town had to offer to a young man out on his own with thoughts of the world at his feet.

     So if you want to hear those stories and relieve those experiences with me, then join me on this year's GWB Ball and maybe over drinks or on the dance floor, we can trade stories while basking in the company of other Sierra Leoneans.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

The Other Side (for those who are heartbroken on Valentines day)



As the world watches
He slowly lunges
Fall caught the gentle waves
As he lives to tell the tale
of love lost on vday

Table set
Candle lit
Champagne chilled
Strawberry iced
Chocolate warmed
Dream nowhere to be seen

The sky becomes clouded
As the wind chills out the candle
Bearing with it a note
Sorry honey:
Cupid’s arrow lost its way.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

The Gift of Love

“When it’s gone, you'll know what a gift love was.”  Ian McEwan, Enduring Love

Over the years I’ve found love the easiest of subjects to write about. Always fully emotionally charged and with enough permutations to make even the most certain of men hesitant, the ideas just seem to materialize when they are needed. It is amidst this background that I find the need to write this piece.
As we lay claim to the fact that we each have our own stories, there is always that one story common to most of us. The story of that one girl. Mine was not so different. My “that girl” was you, my first love. You were the first girl I knew who loved me. The meet happened years ago. So long ago that we had both moved on and subsequently become friends.
At least I believed I had moved on, until I found out there was someone else now who you love as much as you did me. I know, its ignorant for me to assume I would always be special to you, Especially considering that I had moved on too. I know, that is why I was surprised at the outpouring of sadness that initially occurred when I discovered this.
There is no hope of us ever hooking up again, we both realize we are not the perfect fit for the other and now that I reevaluated things, I’m happy that you’re happy. I wish nothing but the best for you and him. I hope he brings more joy in your heart than I ever did and none of the tears I ever caused to flow down your cheeks.  For good measure, and because it perfect encapsulates my feelings I’ll add the words of Bruno Mars to this:



Oh I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers
I hope he hold your hands
Give you all his hours
When he has the chance
Take you to every party
Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man

Thursday, February 28, 2013

An African Man


     I thought of my Grandpa, and couldn't hep but smile. He was no great African Statesman, no political activist, no human rights advocate, he was not a millionaire, an investor or a world traveler  He was my grandpa and that superseded all those preceding accolades.

    You have heard that it has been said that African men are not emotional. There is more than a  modicum of truth in that...(cue the discussion between traditionalists and modernists about my generalisation). It is not so much that emotions do not exist in the social landscape of African men, it is that they tend to shove it in the darker recesses of their mind. My grandpa was an African man in that regard.He never once told me he loved me, but there was no action that he ever took that ever gave me cause to doubt that he did. 

     He was a warrior. Having fought for the British in the Gold Coast he held military members in high regards but he never boasted of his service. In fact you had to be really close to him to know he served. He is an African man.

     He believed in family. We were not related by blood, something you wouldn't know unless i told you. He adopted my friends as his. My friends had as many stories of him as of their own grandparents. He is an African man.

     He worked the same job for all his life. He mastered all the intricacies of his job. He showed up everyday and his job became an extension of his life. I had never seem him blow off work or call sick. He did all that and then he retired to his house. He is an African man.

    He was a collector, a historical document in itself. I did not have to go to the museum (which everyone knows is a disgrace when its collection is evaluated) to look at all the old currencies we've had. My first constitution i got from him, my first sierra leonean books were from him (still fondly remember "sawpit boy" and "kossoh town boy"). The first krio bible i saw was his. He had lived our country's history and yet he was never one to pontificate to others. He is an African man.

     I never heard him discuss politics, he always registered and went to the polls. He knew the history and lineage of most of the politicians. He never tried to indoctrinate those under his care. he did his civic duty and asked for nothing in return. he is an African man.

     He was stubborn, headstrong and sometimes overbearing. His wife i'm sure would have stories to tell of some of the times they had a spark in their relationship. He always told it for what it was. He had worked hard for all he had all his life and did not tolerate any who would want to take from him what was rightfully his. He is an African man.
     My grandfather is not a legend, he is a man. He lived his youth, he served his country, he pays his dues, he takes care of his own. He is my African man and I would that he gets this compliment rather than  a  eulogy.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

My First Revo (April 29th, 1992)

It was a day unlike many others. A Wednesday that defied all other Wednesdays, but at the start, my seven year old mind did not notice any difference. Usually we were just about tired of school and started our countdown to the weekend. The teachers had noticed this and decided to spice up our interests with hot mental every Wednesday. I had hurriedly memorized the 4 times table that night because although we had been tasked with memorizing the 3 times table, I wanted to prove to my classmates who were always on my case, that this “upline borboh” younger than all of them in the class was also smarter than all of them.

As usual, my cousin and I made the slow scenic walk to school. We had to walk out the big compound I was residing in, one that my step grandpa had built with my grandma, two people I had known for less than one year, a period in which I had lost my house, been separated from my Mother and my brother and been abandoned by my Dad at his Mom’s. War has us all as victims, but on that day all I was thinking was how much different the walk to school was from my town in kailahun to the city Freetown. 

There, in Kailahun, after breakfast, my mum usually dropped me off at my granddad’s. More often than not my grandpa would have left for the farm, but not before leaving me a tasty treat. Then my uncle, who was just a few years older than I, would walk with me to school. Roman Catholic Primary School or RC School as everyone knew it, was one of the many mission schools that plagued the interior of the country. I cannot now remember any of my classmates or even any of my other schoolmates beside my uncle, but I did remember my head teacher, Mrs Mary John, a nice and capable white woman, whose story I was ignorant of, satisfied with the fact that she was nice and that she knew my family well.

Here, in Freetown, after breakfast it was a walk to school with another cousin, whom I had to call cousin because we were both young and staying in the same house but cannot till this day for the life of me explain our relationship. Our route took us past the neighborhood market, named “Kongosa makit” (gossip market), past the house of a young lady who would become very special to me more than a decade and a half later, past a mosque and down to my school.

Church of Christ primary school, or Overlook school as it was more popularly called, was a school of the Church whose building and resources we shared.  Sitting on the edge of an overly utilized stream, we were as likely to spend our lunchbreak playing by the stream as we were playing in the baptismal spot of the church. For a church surrounded by a multitude of houses constructed from corrugated zinc sheets and scrap woods the expectation would have been that we would be constantly distracted by noise but since the kids from those houses were all pupils in the school all the noise during the day was coming from us.

The school day started like any other. We had devotion conducted by the principal, with our aunties and uncles as we called our teachers, darting here and there trying to keep us in a straight line and from talking amongst ourselves. They were doing a good job too with their stern looks of disapproval and the canes as diverse as themselves. Trying their best to look formal, the baggy dress pants held together with thin multi colored belts, oversized dressed shirts and the bipolar assortment of ties for the men and the oddly better dressed women succeeded.  Their task of making us better citizens and better people with a brighter future, was another question altogether as they sometimes seemed as disillusioned about our future as we were unconcerned about it. As usual we capped the devotion with the singing of our National Anthem, always the good young patriots.

As we were dismissed to our classes, we sped off as fast as our little legs could carry us, trying to get to the class early in order to claim the least rickety piece of furniture we would call our own for that school day. After the excitement of finding seats we ploughed into the school day as we did every day, with the joys of hanging out among our own kind and the torture we felt we were going through just by being there.
Not too long after, the school was abuzz with further excitement. The usually calm Principal was seen talking to our teacher whose face was more animated than we had ever seen it. Very soon parents in the surrounding houses were pulling their kids from school and we could see through our frameless and pane-less window, a lot more people than usual running by our school. Not too long after, those of us who were still present were asked to assemble in front of the class and we were told we were processing back to our houses.
The only year in our school history, when we had two “march-past”, this odd assortment of wide eyed pupils and strangely assorted teachers left the church grounds, went past the mosque, past a house that would be of greater significance later on in life, through a now empty market and continued down the road, dropping off each student at their home.

I never did quite figure out how far the procession actually travelled before each pupil and teacher got to their home and as my colleagues watched me walk up my drive I never quite knew how significant events happening around the country would shape the course of mine and my country’s future.

It was April 29, 1992. The mood in the whole country was happy. Youth was for the first time the controlling voice. The status quo was challenged at one swoop. It was a day unlike many others but when I walked through the doors of the place I called home, I was just glad we didn’t have the hot mental.

Notes:
Hot mental was a quiz like thing we grew up with, the questions were on multiplication tables and we would get whacked on our hands for every wrong answer.
"Upline borboh" was a boy from the provinces and not from the capital city.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

The African Child


His were the eyes of a bastard,
The acquiescing ayes of the unloved.
Dotted with the multitude of surrogates,
Lined with the dead tears of dead promises.

Regaled with the ayes of her mother’s tongue

As she is pillaged by father candidates.
Strengthened by the constant employment
Of both hands to protect
the eyes and ears of his siblings from corruption.

Continuously challenged to be the judge
Between the cost of his mother’s neglect
and the cost of his own nurture.
Longing constantly for his day of emancipation.

Bringing with it an independence
That will end his mother’s whoring,
Establish his identity
And provide the platform for the security of his siblings.

The day his land ceases her whoring to strangers from afar.
The day he ceases to look at other nations for redemption.
The day his kinsmen become his brothers.
Waiting for the day he ceases to be a bastard son,
And starts been an Independent man.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

I THINK I NEED A MAN


I think I need a man
A man who loves me for who I am
Intelligent, Articulate and caring
I need a man who will respect me
One who’s not afraid to love me
I need a good man

I need a man who will take his time to know me
Knows what makes me smile
What makes me chuckle
and what makes me laugh

A man with strong shoulders
For me to cry on
Patience aplenty to listen
And caring enough to talk to me

I need a man who knows how to
Unbuckle my knees and
Cause my thighs to tremble
A man big enough for two hands
more than enough for a mouthful
and master of many strokes

A man who knows when to tease
When to kiss
When to suck and when to bite
A generous man
Willing to follow as well as lead

Until I meet that man I need
I’ll continue to build myself
Knowing there is that one man
Looking for me as much as I
Look for him
I think I need that man.